2011!

ola!!!!! happy new yr!!! hahahaha
the yr is new.. but im not sure wad r the other things tht will b new..
aimin to b a new person
dun think it will suceed tho. lol
anyway juz a short post for new yr. signin off here. =)

seriously.. i'm done tryin.
i tried to b nice to u. well it may work for juz tht moment
then wad? frm wad i see u dun even treat me as ur fren huh?
sumtimes it didnt even work. i feel like ur trying to push me away frm the vry frens i have.
talkin abt stuff tht i hav ntg to do with.
i really had enough.. i really dun understand wad is it tht u want
always talking abt how great u r. pfftt the only thing i see is tht ur freakin biased
i'm done with ur unequal treatment.
juz so u know. things were fine even without u in the picture.
do u know how it feels to be treated invisible??
i'm not askin for much. i juz wan to b treated like how u treat others.
fine then. u can keep doin wad u wan.
i dowan to care abt any of this crap anymore. -.-

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ok i feel much btr alrdy =)

wait for you..

this would b my 1st post in 6 months
i wanted to post sumthing 2day coz i had this dream yesterday
and it made me think abt her again.
yes, after so long. :(

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I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

number 1..

ok 2day out of a sudden im struck by emo-ness agn
its been so long since i've feel this way
i start to miss you again ='(
it will never end wont it?

i've tried. to forget u. start all over agn
but no matter how it still comes back to u
i really duno wad to do anymore
no one could make me feel like how i felt for u
now and then i will still feel sad whenever i think u actually forgotten me T_T

i know i sound useless
and i know im also selfish
selfish for not wanting to risk our frenship
and now.. mayb all i can ask for is to let me care for u like how i did last time
u will always b my number 1..

tired~

today as in 25th of june
i, wei wen and bryan went to visit my heng dai's.. well 1 was a girl but oh well. xD
ya so its a kinda long drive ther
imagine jason driving to and back ther evryday
OMG salute tht guy mann! still can tahan -.-
so.. we go according to plan! =D
but well one of the important factor wasnt ther anymore =(
thx to karmun.. haha u shud've done sumthing more. like.. kidnap? haha jkjk
but we had fun la.. wad a visit!
and imagine evrything is much more cheaper even when compared to puchong
how nice eh?

then we went straight to sheue chyi's hse to watch football
we reached her hse at around 10pm
ngam ngam the match start!
well the most anticipating match turned out to b soooo boring -.-
0-0 all the way.
thx to foley adn dou wei who brought their laptop. we ended up half playing games half watching football
and dw actually introduce a game which looks lame and cute
but turn out to b vry interesting~ haha
plant VS zombie!
any1 played bfore? =D

recap!

now now.. i actually updated my blog nearly once per month!
i really needa revive this almost-dead blog
but.. im so freakin lazy!!! lol
y am i feelin like im always givin excuses evrytime i update my blog? -.-

ok anyhow. im on my hols now
oh finally rite???
its like been century since i had a holiday
well not literally but it seriously felt tht way
the stress and all is juz unbearable!
this holidays im juz gonna CHILL!!!
and when college reopens im really much nearer to the actual exam
im guessing no more 'chillin' by tht time =(
ok y am i reminding myself of the sad truth????!!!!!

anyway imma go for a farewell party this saturday
cant say who coz im suppose to keep it a secret =P
haha so he btr not read this blog!!
soo.. its a surprise party since he gav this news to us in such a surprise too!!!
how dare him??!!! lol

and another plan of mine during my hols..
imma go visit my ktar frens nex week
we'll 1 of the days
but the prob is, i hav no idea how to get ther
i feel like such a failure! LOL
so.. wei wen!!!! u btr b free coz imma really nid ur help to fetch us ther! xD

oh well today i went for movie with sc, gy, bryan, jx and foley
watched karate kid. and its quite a nice show!
how lucky of jaden smith to b able to work with jackie chan alrdy in his 1st OWN movie..
and also kissed a girl! lmao

also im hooked onto another justin bieber's song!! LOL
never say never~ xD

wow!

wow i juz realized.. it had been 1 month seen i blogged!
fuyoh time passed real fast
i rmb juz entering college with all the awkwardness
and now its been almost half a yr
and we're abt to sit our semester exams!!!
OMFG im so scared =(

but at least now im quite settled with this new life
still thers time wher i'll think back of the awesome memories of our craziness in high school
mann the moments r irreplaceable.

hmm and still no matter how hard i think tht i let u go, u still will appear in my head
thers also times wher i feel so sad tho i may seem to b more cheerful then the past
now its like i've lose u.. is this how it suppose to b??
we were once close and now.. at least how i felt it was
am i forgotten? or juz left aside like a worn-out item?
wad happened?? to u.. or me??
i've tried my best. now..
i really dun know anymore :'(

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ok anyway..
the gud news is...
I GET MY NEW CAR EDI!!! xDD
well it was yesterday's news
but i was so lazy to blog so it came up here only by 2day. hehe

yeah i guess most ppl alrdy know wad car i get
so yeah.. its quite a nice car
easy to control and all
juz 1 glitch.. not enough POWER!!
haha mayb its bcoz im so used to driving my mom's accord so thts y im feelin tht
but now im getting used to it..
at least now its my own car~ thx dad =)